me & my BOYS-update and a new need to start blogging again

Hey yall!!

Its been a very long time!!  Life has been crazy and great!  Um... lets see.  I can't believe I started this blog more than 5 years ago when I was pregnant with Z!  He just turned 5 last week!!  He is such a fun sweet boy.  He is growing up so fast!!  So after Z we struggled with miscarriages.  We had 5 total.  It was a very long hard struggle for us.  But currently we are 22 weeks pregnant with our second boy!!!  So I can keep the name blog me and my boys!  ;)  Baby is healthy and very active.  I think God knew my momma heart needed a active baby for reassurances.  God is good.   I've been very sick this whole time, but its getting better- I can't complain because baby is doing well. Z is very excited to get getting a little brother!

Happy 5th birthday big boy!!!

Overall we are all doing well!!  Living life with a healthy 5 year old and being pregnant.  Z is in pre k and enjoys being there most the time!  He is so funny and says the funniest things.  He still is hoping I am having twins.. lol.  So I plan on updating this through out my pregnancy again like I did with Z.  It has been alot of fun to look back on things I posted when Z was little and I want to have the same with this baby!

22 week poll:

How far along? 21 weeks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: Lost 15 lbs (been pretty sick the first 21 weeks.. finally getting better)

Maternity clothes? Yes, needed them pretty early on, maybe 10 weeks preg started wearing them.

Stretch marks?  Pretty sure no new ones.. but my first pregnancy covered me in them so

Sleep: I'm not sleeping well lately.  hips, back pains
Best moment this week: Always feeling the kicks.  Love that feeling!! 
Movement: Yep, he is super active!  
Food cravings: Egg burritos lately.  Strawberries and pineapple as well. 
Gender: Baby Boy!!
Labor Signs: Nope
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: 
What I am looking forward to:  Seeing Z as a big brother. 

Weekly Wisdom:  Enjoy the kicks.  You will miss them.  Especially after I 
Milestones: Making it to 20 weeks and seeing the baby at the anatomy scan last week

Old man Chase and Z best buddies

Garden

Instead of planting in pots this year, I did a flower garden.. Like I planted a lot of heirloom seeds!  So next year, I'm sure it will be great.  This year, its alittle bit sad...  I did plant a few flowers that have already bloomed so I could have some color in there... 

  But its a little more depressing than it has been before...  But there is alot of green!  So there is hope!  We all need alittle hope sometimes right?  We still have to do more.. like edging and mulch and it will look so much better after all that. 

This gem of a bird bath has my favorite little guys foot prints as a butterfly my amazing momma made me for mothers day!  I love every part of it. 

And veggie are all coming up great!!  I can't wait until they are ready to eat!!!!  Love fresh veggies!! 

A boy and his Best Buddy in the whole world!

 There is nothing quite like a father and son bond!!  These two have my heart...  Z calls his daddy his best buddy in the whole world!!

 

I really don't know what I would do without them...  They bring so much joy and light to my world.. and I see so much of daddy in Z.    

First camp "out" of the year

We LOVE being outside.  Love getting away and sitting by a camp fire.  I was raised camping and I love that my husband also enjoys it.  But really whats not to love...  Sitting around a fire looking at the stars and talking to friends is one of the most relaxing things in life. 

It was so nice out over the weekend.  The plan was to actually go camping somewhere, but we need to add a hitch to our van.. and the store couldn't get the part in on time.. so we just set up the camper in our back yard.  The weather was amazing the whole weekend.  Over the winter.. some mice got into our camper.. and made their home there... ate all the curtains-so dirty.  

So there was a lot of prep to get to this weekend.. Cleaning, shampooing, sewing, lots of sewing.  But it was worth it.  And the new curtains look pretty good if I don't say so myself!

We even were lucky enough to have some friends come out to our "campsite"  It was fun having them out there!

And of course there were hot dogs and smores!!

It was a lot of fun.. And some very welcome family time!

It was fun.. but a pretty exhausting weekend full of late nights and early mornings. 

I think we are still recovering a little bit from the lack of sleep.. But it was wonderful!  I hope we get to go out a lot this summer! 

My goodness.. I havn't posted in forever.

I happened to look back at my blog because someone asked if anyone had done the cotton ball smashing thing we did a few years back.  I knew I had pictures of it, so I looked at my blog...  I realized how much I enjoy being able to look back!  So I think I'm in a place I can start blogging again.  I'll start with a quick update.  Z is 4... 4 years old!!  It is crazy to think I started writing before he was born.  He is amazing.  Funny, a class clown already, spicy, but a little lover.  He has such a great heart.  And for the most part he is super healthy.  That's a big change if you look back on the blog.  I whole heartly think it is because we changed how we looked at health. We use DoTerra oils.  I love them.  They changed so much about our lives.  We use them daily!



About me.  I've had more miscarriages.  I've had testing done and we found out a few things-which is good.  I've lost about 65 lbs.  Exercise and diet.  I'm finally moving out of a very dark depression I was in.  I am blessed with some amazing family and friends. 

So thats us!  :)

March 5, 2014

9 months ago, I thought this day would have played out much different.... but things don't always happen how you think they should.  .....  We woke up, (by that I mean I wake Z up) ate, hoped in the van, and off to the gym.  I worked out w/ my trainer, who I have missed!!  then did soem shopping.  We got home after a long day of shopping, put the food away, and snuggled.  Then Z fell asleep in my lap, so I took him upstairs.  Then I wrote a letter.  A letter to a baby I never was able to meet.  Through tears, (less than I imagined)  I ended it with this "today, we should be holding you, but instead I hold this balloon."  

So I went outside alone and let go of the balloon.  My heart heavy, but also feeling lighter. 


I thought I would be introducing Z to his new sibling, making a new breastfeeding relationship, changing diapers, prepping for lots of sleepless nights and days.  Learning how to be a mom of 2....  but things don't always happen how you think they should. 

Hope.

Catch the moment

Another crazy week... Being stuck inside is not as fun as it sounds....  Toddlers don't like being cooped up..  My patience were wearing very thin by the end of the week.. I had been touched out.. I tried to get away and take a bath.. note the picture of said toddler in said "peaceful" bath.  He found me..  I became a ladder alot..  Also because of the cold and snow and not going anywhere, our car wouldn't start.  Thanks to K for charging it for us!  There was some time he wanted time away from me to (reading in his corner)...   Also after such a long time of him not growing at all-he finally grew!  Right out of my favorite pjs of his!  

We are super blessed b/c my parents took z for the weekend.... Today I feel like such a more refreshed and more patience mommy again!